BlinkyRoxShitBaby

Cinta

2012-01-27T01:26:00.002+08:00

I’m scared of walking out and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.

I love that after I spend my day with you, I can still smell you on my clothes.

And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because I’m lonely.

When you love someone, and you love them with your heart, it never disappears.

I’m beginning to think that maybe it’s not just how much you love someone.

Maybe what matters is who you are when you’re with them.

i usually don’t like thinking about the future. I mean let’s face it, you can’t predict what’s going to happen.But sometimes, the thing you didn’t expect is what you really wanted after all. Maybe the best thing to do is stop trying to figure out where you’re going and just enjoy where you’re at.

And It Goes Something Like This

2012-01-05T03:13:00.004+08:00

My heart feels like it’s torn in two,

Why can't I just be with you?

Everyday another tear,

Everyday a lot more fear.

I want to hold you in my arms, I want to keep you safe from harm.

I act like things are all okay, But I really wanna run away.

I act like things are all alright, But always end up in a fight.

I cry more tears than I can count; Why won't they just let me out?

I tell myself these things won't stay, But I don't think they'll go away.

if this was your last chance to say something to me, what would you say?

2011-06-07T02:00:00.003+08:00

if this was your last chance to say something to me, what would you say?

Answer here

formspring.me

2011-06-07T02:00:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/BlinkLautner

2011-05-19T22:30:00.001+08:00

Show all

once you decide not to worry about that stuff anymore, dating and relationships and love and all that, it’s like you’re free to get on with real life.

i'll be that fool for you.

2011-05-17T00:28:00.001+08:00

I don't like being alone.Not because I'm scared of it but because its the only time life slows down enough for me to think..and then i think of you.

2011-05-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

formspring.me

2011-05-16T22:21:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/BlinkLautner

The List.

2010-12-25T15:22:00.005+08:00

Stay on the phone with me, even when I’m not saying anything.
Call me before you fall asleep and when you wake up

Tease me and let me tease you back.
Stay up all night with me when I’m sick.

Let me know I’m important.
Laugh at me when I fall, then kiss me and make it all better.
Put up with my klutziness.

Sing your favorite songs to me.
Stay at home with me to watch our favorite movies and cook dinner.

Show me off.
Kiss my forehead.
Dance with me to no music.
Play with my hair.
Send me random texts just because you miss me.

Call me back when I hang up on you.
Put up with my crazy sleep habits.
Calm me down when I get upset.

Challenge me; don’t just let me have my way.
Kiss me in front of your friends.
Look at me as if I’m the only girl in the world.
Forgive me when I mess up

Let me play with your hair.Tickle me, even when I say stop.

When I swear at you, tell me you love me.

Let me fall asleep in your arms.
Kiss me in the rain.

Watch my favorite movie with me, and then make me watch yours.
Don’t let me take myself too seriously.

Hold me tight.
Let me snuggle up with you in the morning.
Put up with my morning-person antics.

You’re so cute when you get mad.

So here’s the list that inspired all this. What’s on your list?

2010-12-22T16:08:00.001+08:00

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

2010-12-17T13:10:00.003+08:00

Do you know how much I want you,
How anxiously I miss you.
How much is there to go without you and how my heart beats because of you.

2010-11-25T04:35:00.003+08:00

People don't understand what it means to love someone. Love is not something you can be selfish about. It is a give and take situation, notice give being the first word in that. Love is not about what the person you're with is doing to make you happy, it's about what you're doing to make them happy. Now the person you're with should be thinking along the same lines so it's not a take-take situation on their part.

I don't believe you can fall out of love with someone because if that happens you never really loved them, you were infatuated yes, but not in love. A relationship that lasts years and ends doesn't mean you truely loved the person, you did "love" them in a way but you never had true love.

Some say love is overrated.Some say love is everything, and they couldn’t bear to be apart from that special someone for more than a few hours.Some treat love as a game, untrusting and manipulative.

So many people try to think of ways of saying it, to make it mean so much more; some say it just because they are words of flattery – because it is what the other person wants to hear. The truth is, love is so much more than just words. Love is expressions, touches, experiences. Love is growing together as one. When you find that person, and you grow to love each other, you suddenly understand why people would die for someone, why people would kill.
This person becomes your world.

Rooms become a safe haven, love is proven, promises are made and truths are told. The “I love you’s”never seem to do your feelings justice at times like these, because there is no way the person can know through three simple words how much you need them with you, always and forever. Even till death do us part sounds like a cheap cliché, but it’s the best you can do. In their arms, and in their heart is the only place you ever want to be.

Safe, warm and secure.

There are fights, fights that make you forget everything else, make it impossible to concentrate because all you can focus on is what the other person is thinking.
Are they still angry?
Do they still care?
Will this fight mark the end..? No! Never!
Do they miss you as much as you miss them; miss the comfort of their laughter, their reassurance that everything is ok?
So many hopeless predictions as to what they’re thinking as you try not to let the desperation get to you - the worry can drive you mad. Picking up the phone, putting it down, wanting to talk but not wanting to make things worse. One call, so much hope – so much fear.Maybe the fights are meant to happen, just so that you remember how important this person’s love is – and so you can experience the pure bliss of making up and feeling so close to them once again, as if you have been separated for years, making up for the time of lost love with words and gestures.

Then there is the love making. And yes, it becomes more than just sex. Two people coming together as one in a means of expressing their feelings for each other. Not just another notch on their belt to brag about on Monday – something surreal and lasting. Soaring to new heights, both of you sure that no other couple could ever feel this way. And maybe they can’t, because each love is sacred, each love is different. Lovers moving in perfect time, knowing their partner so well, feeling the build up of passion, two bodies knowing the exact moment to let go.

Smooth, syncopated, perfect.
Free falling, too fast to stop on a one way trip to heaven. A heaven for two. Landing soft and finding yourself still in their arms, planting kisses on your face, your neck – leaving imprints on your heart.
Two people, two hearts.
Both beating for the other, both keeping the love alive.

But above all this, there is the constant feeling of love that stays with you every second of the day. There really are no words that can explain it, and no way that you can understand it fully unless you have felt the feelings yourself.

love,

Blink

Lets Fly.

2010-11-23T17:06:00.001+08:00

"you want the moon girl,watch me grab it".

random.

2010-11-20T15:36:00.001+08:00

dont fool yourself.

Life.

2010-11-05T14:47:00.005+08:00

"You should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because ,when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again.You must practice on being strong instead."

Eat.Pray.Love.

its just me,i just think alot.i just interpret every single motherfuckin think that could interpreted.you can say im ridiculous.yeah,its just me.i have a motherfucking huge ego issues who have big expectations.so, many hopes are crushed and still crushing.

Feel this.

2010-10-28T20:44:00.003+08:00

Love is precious when they mean everything to you.

Love is painful when they're not with you.

Love is priceless the true kind cant be bought.

Love is life when its all youve got.

There is no such word as 'loved'.

Love has no past tense.

If you ever stop loving someone,

then you never truly love them

in the first place.

i want my love story.i want my happy ending.

Dont Let Me Go.

2010-07-13T14:42:00.006+08:00

I want to write a poem to you, even though we're far apart.
Physically, we're distant. But you lie within my heart.

I dream about you, Think about you every day.
I want to write these words to you, those that I cannot say.
I want you to understand,the feelings inside that grew.
So that your heart can finally see, my love is pure and true.
I know you may not understand, what lies beyond those lines.
But there's a fine line, between "heartbreak" and "love true".
And deep down I really believed that Im meant for you.
And after all this times,i keep loving you. Is this normal? Is it strange?
Everywhere I turn, you're always there.
Whatever may be the answer,im scared I'll lose the fight.
I cant fight my feelings.. I cant stop loving you...
I was the desperate one.
This isn't a love poem, it's to remind you of those times.
When we could laugh, and we could sing with no boundary lines..
We'd say what we felt, with our hearts.
I've open my own up to someone, and that someone is you..

For You.

2010-07-04T13:55:00.002+08:00

A person who looks so much for something will never find it; Only when that person stops looking for love, will they find love.

Love has no exact defination, but the meaning is not impossible to find.Since the day we're together, I have been the happiest and luckiest girl in the world, to have you here right next to me.
Love might not be a complicated word to say, but to describe it, it's almost impossible. It's a feeling of pleasure but not exactly pleasure for oneself.If you fall down, you'll always have me by your side to pick you up and pursue you to keep going and trying your very best.

:)

2010-01-23T17:11:00.003+08:00

"i wanna live a life from a new perspective."

what love is?

2009-12-23T20:37:00.004+08:00

"I ADORE you,

you crazy,gorgeous,WONDERFUL(but

also sometimes quite weird

-but still very lovely) person."

<3

2009-12-19T23:18:00.001+08:00

"IF LOVING YOU IS WRONG,
I NEVER WANT TO BE RIGHT AGAIN."

2009-12-17T13:57:00.003+08:00

"there are alot of people who

call you by your name.

but there is only ONE person

who can make it sound

so damn special."

Defination.

2009-12-11T15:40:00.004+08:00

LOVE: We think about it, Sing about it, Dream about it. When we don’t know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don’t know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain, but we don’t know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define and IMPOSSIBLE to live without.

oh happy day.

2009-12-06T17:55:00.003+08:00

"Life Is One Big Mystery."
Life is an adventure
Taking,
Giving
Leaving,
Coming
Stealing,
Receiving
You never know where it'll take you,
What it will take from you,
Where it will lead you.

2009-11-28T17:51:00.002+08:00

"sometimes the heart sees what is invinsible to the eye"

determination babe.

2009-11-27T14:44:00.003+08:00

i wanna stop looking back
and start moving on,
and learn how to face my fears.
love with all of my heart,
make my mark;
i wanna leave something here,
go out on a ledge,
without any net.
that's what im gonna be about.
yeah,i wanna keep running,
till the sand runs out.

this quote says it all.

2009-11-22T21:03:00.004+08:00

"its different when you're lonely,
its like the whole world is in LOVE."

there are moments in your life that make you
and set the course of who you're going to be.
sometimes they're little,subtle moments.
sometimes,they're big moments
you never saw coming.
no one ask for their life to change,
but it does.
its what you do afterwards that counts.

"when you're forced to stand alone,
you realize what you have in you."

-,-

2009-11-21T16:17:00.004+08:00

"i was a fool to believe
the words you told me"

find someone who calls you back
when you hangup on him/her.
who will lie under the stars & listens to
your heartbeat,or
will stay awake just to hear/watch you sleep.
wait for the boy/girl who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world,
who holds your hand infront of your friends.
one who constantly reminding you how much he/she cares
for you,how much he/she loves you,
and how lucky he/she to have you.

the whole LOVE thing.

2009-11-15T14:26:00.005+08:00

"Love Is Like That."

ive been doing alot of thinking.
sometimes,the people around me could scare the hell outta me
coz of the problems they are facing.
i will usually think alot and get scared,
& i will get so paranoid.
if its about Love,Life,Friendship.
well,last night showed me alot of things.
ive experience this before myself,
like you tend to say and shout and scream whatever
and the other partner or the people around you
will somehow get scared or hurt.
and then they will say things that could actually break your heart.
why ?
is it human to do that?
i mean,we're all the same species,HUMAN.
why would you hurt the other person when you know its gonna hurt her/him?
and then after awhile when you actually calm down,
then you start to realize your mistakes,
and would try to convince your partner
to forgive you and you would change
for the better and wont do it again.
if you know youre in the wrong,you should apologise.
right?
not,fight and say all those harsh words first then apologise for your mistakes.
i mean,arent you people scared of losing someone you love?
what if its too late?
ive experience this and ive taken every chance that i have now to prove to her that i love her and i care for her.
i dont wanna lose her just like that,
after all that we have been through.
i was a totally ego-maniac in the past,
you can ask her yourself.
but ive changed,for the better.
i treasure this thing that we have build.
and no way am i gonna break it that easily.
the reason why im blogging about this is because,
the people around cant seem to get it in their head.
i mean,isit that easy to let go of someone whom you love and care so much?
not for me.
i did tried.
but i cant.
i felt empty.
Lonely,unloved,foolish and kept thinking to myself,
wtf did i just did?!

well,to people out there who's being offended coz of this post,
im sorry i had no intention to do that.
just dont take anyone you love for granted k?
forgive them if they have made any mistakes.
we are humans afterall.
we are not perfect.

Paranormal Activity & Saw IV

2009-11-14T18:41:00.004+08:00

ive watched this 2 movies

called,

Saw IV & Paranormal Activity.

Saw IV was gross.

Such a sadist movie.

i was freezing in the theatre

and right infront of me,

there's this gruesome,gross-out people,

trying to save their own ass.

GOSH!

it was so sadist!

but overall,it was a THUMBS UP for me (:

Paranormal activity was really spooky.

i watched it online.

and it gave me goosebumps.

i dont know that if its fiction or non-fiction.

but it was scary!

do not watched it in the theatre for

this kinda movie.

its like a documentary.

xoxo

2009-11-14T15:09:00.002+08:00

"i miss you".

i miss talking to you under the sun.

under the full lit moonlight.

i miss how we used to be.

i miss our conversations,

even if its about something stupid.

i miss how we cant get enough of

each other,

and still wanting more.

i miss the times when we just

talked on the phone for

hours,

whispering sweet nothings.

i miss hugging the skin that

send shivers to my spine.

i miss that soft,tender lips

that i indulge in so much.

Hey Girl,

I Miss You Like Crazy.

anotherweek

2009-11-08T22:24:00.003+08:00

goodbye weekends,

hello Monday.

goodbye long holidays,

hello work days.

okay,finally!

weekend is almost over.

wor,work,work.

boredness

2009-11-07T15:55:00.007+08:00

"boredom strikes again".
what a long-long weekend for me.
some people find it good,
but as for me,
it bores me to death.

"new addict".
btw!
i bought this really cool phone.
Samsung M7603 Beat Dj.
oh since my kaprak hp pichak liao!
chialat ohhhhh!
hahaha!
and im really happy with it!
i love it to the maxxxxxxx!!
so in love laahhhhh!!
oh, fyd & lila bought iphone lah!
hmph!
nvm!!
LMAO!

anyway, i miss shopping!
gaaahhhh!!
just afew days back i went to buy some stuffs.
OMG.
i really am going crazily insane already!

anothersuicidesunday

2009-11-01T21:47:00.002+08:00

here we go again.

its those 'wth,wtf' kinda boring days.

cant really go out coz not feeling too good.

WTF!
so what i did the whole day at home?

on the freaking lappy the whole damn time.

watched 17 Again online.

and you know what,

Zac Efron look like somebody i know.

Hahaa!

should i say here?

well,this person did jokingly asked me to blog about him,

coz i told him idk what to blog about last night.

haaaha!

FADLIE!

i think you look like ZAC EFRON!

okayyyyyyy.

there.

haahaha!

okay im rotting to death now.

i cant wait to go to work tomorrow.

gonna meet up with Dude and grab breakfast.

gotta go sleep early!

ps:i miss shopping badly!GAHHHHHH~!

fuckup

2009-11-01T16:12:00.005+08:00

puked & puked & puked.stayed home last night.fucked my halloween night.uuuurrrgghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

youarewhoyouare

2009-10-31T22:37:00.001+08:00

recentactivities

2009-10-31T13:07:00.008+08:00

got my FUCKIN haircut!!!

spike it up.

doll it up.

FUCK it up!

hahaha!

Recent activities?!

it was AWESOME.

Pictorials.

this was taken last night.

Sexy candid pics of her.

we had dinner together at PS.

Okay lah give you chance lah..

didnt ComicStrip your pics lah.

hahah!

more pictures in Fb (:

halloween

2009-10-29T20:26:00.002+08:00

hisdamnsexyhotsongs

2009-10-25T21:31:00.005+08:00

This is John Vesely.

His songs
is all about soft, tender emo love.

That's why im in love with his songs.

He's my idol since the first day his song came out.

I know im so random as to blog about him.

A fren of mine called in the afternoon just now.
He was listening to Secondhand Serenade songs,
and i was like,"Dude,its been a long time since i last listen to

to their songs!"

and then we talked about how really meaningful the songs is.

Listen to my blog song (:

The lyrics,the music,the guitar,John Vesely.

Perfect.

i so love John Vesely.

He's hot and sexy.

hocuspocus.

2009-10-25T15:30:00.003+08:00

hello people (:

i just did my housework,

ahahaha!

shut up k!

shhhhhhhhh!

and now im a little bit tired and stuffs but i wanna watch movie online.

so,

i'll update again later aight (:

adios!

btw,enjoy the vid.

i love e girl's voice on the left.

oh & i like e song too.

(;

HerSexyAttitude

2009-10-24T23:15:00.004+08:00

heyheyhey !

well,guess ya'll can 'agak2' what happened coz i sound super duper happy.

heheh!

i miss her soooooo much & im so glad that i gotta meet her just now!

we talked things out & she fucked me up.

well,i deserved it!

but it felt good and relieved after all that has happen :)

this will go on well in the future, i pray.

Yang,i had a wonderful time with you even though

we aint doing anything just now.

but it felt good talking to u,hugging,kissing u again

& again.(:

smelling e same scent,hugging e same person,

touching e same skin..

oh boy,it felt goood!

i haven had enough of u (normal!),

im in love with ur SEXY ATTITUDE !

And to Kruznik Mondoles,

*evil face*

GRRRRRRRRR.

&&&&&!

i cant wait for halloween (;

ohgawddddddd

2009-10-24T17:41:00.002+08:00

nervousness.

that's all i can say now.

8pm at city hall macdonald.

oh nervousness.

*aaaarggghh!*

myflaw

2009-10-23T22:39:00.011+08:00

gdevening (:
my day was the same,
work then home.
but after i reach home, i took my time to shower,
chillout then i decided to switch on my laptop & check my fb.
so as i was on fb,i was blog-hopping too
and i end up in my Dudette's blog.

Tasha aka Shazzy.

dude,my dear,i know ive not been there for u as a fren recently,
since i moved out of yishun,
ive not been spending time with my one & only Dudette.
im so sorry.
how i wish i could be there for u whenever u need a fren.
i know ur going through a pretty rough ride right now,
after the OFFICIAL split with ur ex fiancee.
just wanna let u know that im just a phone call away.
u can always call me anytime u want.
sometimes how i wish u would call me randomly
and ask me how i am and stuffs.
i miss the random u and i miss the crazy shazzy that i know.
but sometimes i feel left out that u have someone in ur life.
u dont spend some time with me anymore,
i understand that he is ur boyfie,
i feel that now,ur world only revolves with ur boyfie,
well,maybe im just a lil bit jealous and upset
that we dont go out and have fun anymore :(
i mean, only the both of us.
remember the sentosa, confession emo
night?
i miss that.
i have alot of things to tell u and share with u but
it seems that ur always with boyfie :(
i miss my shazzybaby badly :(

sleepyday

2009-10-22T20:23:00.002+08:00

today's a very sleepy day for me.
slept at like 3am and woke up at 7.30am for work.
damn!
when i woke up,
my mind was like going ,"Bangkok!Bangkok!Chiayoh!"
hahahah!
thats when i get my lil encouragement from.
i have to save up lots and lots of money to shop there.
3 more mths to go!
o M g !
right now im watching POLO BOYS on channel 5.
so jealous lah they can swim like that unlike me.
:(
hahahah!
tonight have to sleep early so that i can wakeup tmrw for work!

adios peepz (:

OffDayLah

2009-10-20T21:53:00.007+08:00

Chee Cheong Fun & I forgot what's the other one is called.
should be..hmmmmmmmmm..

okayyyyy!i know my hair is freaking long!
but fcuking awesome.
hahahahahahaha!!!
i dont have to wax it!
loves it!
*should i cut it??

i bought this at bugis at this lady's shop at level 2.
if u wanna shop at her shop,
there's 3 rules u need to obey.
Conversation in e shop-
Me:auntie,this one how much ah?
Auntie:$12.this other bag (points to e other bag) aso $12.
That one (points to e other one) is $15.
Me:ohhhhh.okaylah auntie i take this one.
Auntie:ok. this one ahhh.
Me:auntie, $10 can ah?
Auntie:EH!IF U WANT TO SHOP HERE,GOT 3 RULES K
Me: *puzzled*
Auntie:no. 1 ,NO SHOPLIFTING.
no .2,NO BARGAINING.
no.3,THIS IS A VERY GRUMPY LADY.
Me:OH OKAY!
So funny lah.

we chilled at the bubble tea cafe for abit..

oh!we had rojak yg paling sodap didunia niiii!
at tekka!mmmm!yummy!

this is the indian shop in tekka.
nice......
*daydream..*

suchawonderfulday

2009-10-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

today's work was ultimately awesome for me.
haha!
work like for an hour,went for break for 2hours,
then LEPAK for the whole time.
hahaha!
i hope this will continue.
hahaha!
not gonna work tomorrow coz boss have something on so...
gonna meet up with Fyd
& do some research on some stuffs.
hehehe!
anyway,i find this pic amazing.
colorful cigarretes.
i hope they'll really invent this colorful things. (:
im into colorful striking colors now.
no more the dull,black me.
hahaha!
Bangkok, here i come!
cant wait!
now im off to bed...
goodnight people (:

2009-10-18T18:55:00.002+08:00

today's post gonna be a short one.
i didnt go out today so yeah.
stayed home the whole day.
was on facebook for the whole damn day.
that was how bored my day was.

the end.

LONG WEEK.

2009-10-17T00:15:00.006+08:00

its been a long week.
fuhhhhhhhhhhhh....
hahaha.
had fun though working with Fyd.
at least not that sleepy sit in that damn office!
got someone to talk to....
today,after work we went to bugis,
meet up with Lila,
then went to eat at TONG SENG.
had lotsa fun doing whatever we just did.
hahaha!anyway,i forgot to bluetooth pics of them!
only took my pics!
damn!hahahahaha!

i just hope that u'll call me one day,
coz i miss ur voice,ur warmth,
& most of all, i miss u.

"missing someone isn’t about how long it has been since you have seen them
or the amount of time since you’ve talked.
It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something
and you wish that they were right there with you. "

♥

dead & gone

2009-10-11T14:00:00.006+08:00

this is a random post.if u guys dont like it then buzz off.

its been quite some time since i last saw or even talk to u.

idk where or what went wrong.but i guess its the RAYA curse we always have every year.

its so funny if u think about it.

if u guys donno what im talking about ,lemme tell u. :D

hmm,this thing has been going on for 3 or 4 years.

every year,around puasa month,we either fight or suddenly just dont talk.

hahaa!funny right?

thats why she said its like a curse.

and thats why every raya i celebrate alone.

no dates.just frens & family.

lets just get on with it.

to tell u guys e truth,i really miss her & e time we had together.

we had our ups & downs.

sometimes when i walked to places where we used to go,

memories starts to flood my mind & then ill start smiling to myself and then i cant stop thinking of her.

sometimes i just wanna try calling her or just text her & ask her how is she,

but ive got no guts.

im scared.

scared that i will break down & cry when i hear her voice.

then ill have emotional breakdown.

so everytime if i have e urges,

ill think about her facebook pictures,

which can really piss me off then ill forget about e urges.
how clever.

to you,

i really appreciate every single thing that you did for me.

u've been there for me, make me smile and laugh every single day.

everytime we quarrel,i love u more & more.

u showed me how love should be.

u showed me the true meaning of love.

but now,guess i gotta move on right?

i donno whether u still think of me,or maybe uve move on.

but as for me,im still thinking of u.

shock?yeah,every single day.

now,live life to e fullest.
appreciate everyone around me.
i know i can make it.
i heard she wanna turn straight.
well,gd for u then.
ill pray for u and no matter what,u can always call me coz im still ur fren :D
ur always in my heart .

no matter what,u will still be my Ayang.

no one can ever replace u.

Much Love;

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